Dear blog,

Im gonna share with you one of my toughest challenges yet so far. Im really having a HUGE financial problem rite now. Parents are both pensioners. And money is always decreasing and never increasing. I felt so sad when my parents lecture me about money. Cause i really want to give my best to my tithes, offering and also mission/building fund.Of my old allowance, i think i have given 4 months of my allowance in one year of my Christianity life ady. With my current allowance, im not sure how am i going to give abundantly to the LORD. And with car banging me, and me denting other car, and mission goin on rite now. Somemore with the leaders retreat coming. I nid atleast 6 months of my allowance to pay for all that...

Is this just a challenge from God....Or is this just what happens when i use money too much on projects and fuel and so on...If this is a challenge....then how long will this challenge last....im feeling tired....Im feeling dry rite now everytime i see money or anything that has to do with funds...I really have faith and trust God with everything i have rite now....But i just don't know how long can i stand this...Friends are there to pray for me...to cheer me up...to help me here and there....But how long can i last....Im not sure....

Its so challenging just to give to offering and tithes rite now...Sometimes i feel i do not want to give anymore until my financial problems settled. But that is not rite....God will test my faith towards my giving...But how am i to give without any $$ available....

I have thought about this that it will happen one day....But i didn't knew it would happen so fast....Not now....I still have 2 years of college fees to be paid....

In my last post i wrote something about "How can money be more important than Church" Well....With having problems like this...Im also not sure which is more important rite now...I can continue serving with all my heart and willingness...but without and income...can i survive? Surely almost everything needs money rite now...Fuel for car needs money...Projects/Assignments need money to buy materials...Food need money...Electricity needs money....Just everything need money nowadays....

How long will this last....How long can i stand it....When will it end.....