Friday, November 03, 2006

Hmm...Which one would you choose....Your family member's birthday or goin to God's house....Well...Actually tommorow got this dinner to celebrate both my brother and sister's birthday which is coming soon next week...My sis is on the 9th while my Bro is on the 12th...

I couldn't go to the dinner tho coz i have cellgroup to attend...I feel kinda sad coz i miss my family quite alot...lol....People think im that independent...But actually i do miss them on a few occasions...Family is quite important to me...Especially my brother and sister...My sis is 15 years older while my bro is 12 years older...I never really get the chance to really know them, u know...I mean our age difference is so big that our likes and dislekes are also different...Even our thinking is totally different...Because of this i even love both of them even more...So actually my heart really wants to go to this dinner....Its some sort of reunion for me la...coz i haven't seen them quite a while...

Well...i made my decision just now after asking James/Ah Tung for advice...coz i don't really know what to do just now...I want so bad to go home and have dinner but at the same time...i do have commitments with church...i still have to attend the cellgroups and church service...I was stuck just now really...I don't know what to do...Whether to go to cellgroup or attend the dinner...

Would God understand if i went back for dinner and not to cellgroup and/or will my parents understand if i love God more and to show my love to my family i pray for them while im in a cellgroup...


Anyway...im goin to cellgroup...Even tho my heart feels quite lonesome now...I miss my family...Even with friends by my side...i still feel something missing inside....I hope i can overcome this and do my work...As i can't afford to slack off and lose my mood again...I lose far too many times already...I need to focus and have faith in myself....

3:45 AM;;
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