Saturday, November 18, 2006

I guess i've been missing for the last 2 classes...heh....i guess u guys are wondering why...Very very careless of me lo...If im not mistaken task 6 and 5 was ruined...by my own doin.....lol...i actually laughed when i carelessly SPILL water over my task 5 and 6....very big swt....coz it is just the day before the Graphics presentation...Now i need to redo again...Argh!!

I was totally stressed out during that day...kinda panic also...and freaked out...don't know what else to do....I just knew at that moment, that i can't show my face with an incomplete work...

Other than the works ruined...sumthing else happened during that week...I dunno what happen la...but i kinda lost tracked about how much i had in my wallet...I just spend spend and spend during the weekend....and was left bout rm40 for the rest of the week starting from monday...

So the outcome was...super diet for the whole week...Monday and tuesday...i only eaten nasi lemak in coll which was rm1.80..the third day just ate fried mee which was rm2 i think...but on all the three days i ate dinner normally la...The day which i bought the mee, i was only left with rm5...grey asked for rm3 or rm4 sumthing for the notes....then i was like....omg...next week can pay ar...lucky can lo...if not...me die liao...

U guys might be wondering how can im still here typing...lol...Actually for the whole day on thursday...i left with rm2...which i bought bread about 6 buns like that inside...i didn't ate lunch or breakfast...and only ate when it is like 6 oclock like that...3 buns...then around 10 sumthing like tat, i ate the other 3 buns and some fries at McD which my friend treat me...a little happy coz atleast got some calories...potato contain calories rite??? a good subsistute for rice...lol...And u guys probly know that since McD cokes are free flowing...we could not let that go to waste can we...so i think i drank bout 3 large cokes there....lol...when i got back....i was really really full....full of gas....

The next day...which was friday...i woke up...and felt abit weird...kinda upset stomach or sumthing...maybe gastrik...but i didn't have problems when i ate dinner just now...so proly just my stomach telling me to get some food before it get angry and gives me problems...lol

I perfectly know that this is totally unsafe or unhealthy for me....so no need to advice me or anything....I just know that as long as i have faith in Him and continue praying to Him...He will answer all my prayers as vowed to live under an open heaven...

12:40 AM;;
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Sunday, November 12, 2006

Ok....Today is pretty weird for me...Dunno why? Morning was ok...went to class to do some work on the drawing project...then went back during lunch.....Then it rained pretty heavily after lunch...It was very windy too...This reminds me of my poor com which is spoilt because of the thunder....haiz...nvm....my bro will fix it..

The time was 5:30 and that is the time i got ready to go to church...I can't wait for today's service as a pastor from Australia will be coming today..They call him leng chai pastor....Quite leng chai lo for his age...lol...im not saying he is old or anything...im not even sure how old he is....Maybe 30+ or sumthing...lol...ok...enuf said bout him...Age doesn't matter...What matters is what he said during the service...He really gives me something to think after his service...He made me realise sumthing bout myself and my future...Where my future will be after a few years time...I most probably be in church commited on doin something important but i think i will start quite slow...Tomorrow is another different service by him but i don't think im able to come as i still have some homework to complete...lol...okok...what am i doin here blogging then...hahah..can't help it...i want to write....hahah

Ok...i think all that i wrote doesn't even apply to what my topic is above...lol....if this is an essay sure out of topic ady....lol...

The Convenant...What is that anyway u asked...Well for those movie maniacs...u shud know what it is...It a movie...A first look at the poster...it looks like a scary/horror movie....but then it wasn't scary at all...really...take my word for it...there were some parts which made ur heart jump abit tho...lol...but it doesn't seem to have any effect to me...It just makes me think how do they make the effect and thinking if i can make the same kind of effect using my PC...lol...passionate about graphics eh....All i can say is that..for all Dragon Ball anime fans out there....i think u will like this movie...I don't know other ppl but i feel like watching dragon ball with real humans...Even got those kame hame ha! in water form...lol..they can fly too...hahahah...Their eyes were cool too...I like the effect...Ok...if u want to watch this movie...go ahead lo...Its an ok movie...not too great...not too boring...but seriously this won't be the movie which i will watch alot times like A Walk to Remember or FFVII:Advent Children lo...

Ok...enuf said bout that movie...want to know the story go watch lo....Tomorrow got lotsa football activity...At 5 got fooball with my juniors FCA 19..maybe with FCA 20 too...lol...That also not comfirm la...coz of the rain...It has been raining these few days...I hope the weather is fine tomorrow...I want to play soo baddd.....i miss the field...i hope i wont injure myself tho...lol...i don't want to be out of action again...That feel quite lonely...lol...i meant frustrated...Then after that i might be playing with my church mates...A futsal match...lol...Tomorrows sure a day filled with lotsa footballs....haahaha....i hope i can finish my work...ok...i lazy to write anymore...

haha...coz u guys will surely be bored by this long essay ady...somemore no pictures...I wish i had a camera phone so i can pics without bringing the camera...I lazy to charge the batteries for the cam..If phone surely got battery one as i don't think anybody can live without a phone nowadays...oklah...i stop here...

bubyes...

2:37 AM;;
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Friday, November 10, 2006

Hey ya'll..how ya doin these few days? Well...im nt really good in a mental way....lol...My com spoilt...Can't on it....sob sob....i can't live without my com lo...Internet and my music is all in my com...once my com spoilt...i cannot do anything lo..im even lacking ideas now...lol...

but...because of my PC i can eat lunch with my parents...and did i eat alot during that lunch....until my mom also said why suddenly you eat so much one....like didn'teat for a few days....lol....well...actually this week im very very broke...no money lo...because of the aircon bill...suddenly come andit cost rm49...which eathalf my allowance ady....so during this week i had to diet abit lo....

I dunno why people pity me so much...only one day eat maggi say that i eat maggi everyday ady....I didn't complain what...I did what i could and plan my finances for the week with only rm50 left...but then some ppl memperbesarkan my DIET and tell everyone....WTH!! What i do is my business...I know what am i doin and surely God will lend me a hand when im in need of help...I trust God for whatever i do...I have faith...

And one more thing...i just found out today that my Bro quitted his job to work to work in his church...walao...i didn't expect that soon...i thought that it would be some more years....but....coooooll.....i have a Bro that works in a church for a living...He probably is a IT speciallist and some sort of leader...I don't know much....but i do know that he is always the leader in his group and kinda take care of everything that is associated with IT things...

Now im in City Harvest Church...I wonder where would i be after my degree...Would i be in some company like astro and do design for them or would i be in church in the design ministry??
I surely hope i can work in the church as i feel very peaceful and at home there...lol...me speaking about the future kinda gives me goosebumps...

Ok...thats all for today....don't want u guys to read so much without photos......bubye

9:06 PM;;
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Monday, November 06, 2006

Hey hehe....I got a new layout again....why? well the last one was a bit...i mean have too crampy words....Its quite hard to read...Even got some complains from Ryan and Mojo. Is it ok now?

lol...I quite like this skin...its not mine tho...I just download it from blogskins.com..If i have free time, i would make my own skin...That also if i really have that much of free time...


I feel a bit sastified now...Coz Chelsea is losing....yay!!! 2-1 Tottenham lead....yay!! Let Chelsea LOSE.....I don't want them to win....Let Man Utd top the table until the end of the season....

Glory Glory Manchester United! Long Live Sir Alex!!

Only a short one for today...I want to sleep ady...nitez

1:52 AM;;
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Friday, November 03, 2006

Hmm...Which one would you choose....Your family member's birthday or goin to God's house....Well...Actually tommorow got this dinner to celebrate both my brother and sister's birthday which is coming soon next week...My sis is on the 9th while my Bro is on the 12th...

I couldn't go to the dinner tho coz i have cellgroup to attend...I feel kinda sad coz i miss my family quite alot...lol....People think im that independent...But actually i do miss them on a few occasions...Family is quite important to me...Especially my brother and sister...My sis is 15 years older while my bro is 12 years older...I never really get the chance to really know them, u know...I mean our age difference is so big that our likes and dislekes are also different...Even our thinking is totally different...Because of this i even love both of them even more...So actually my heart really wants to go to this dinner....Its some sort of reunion for me la...coz i haven't seen them quite a while...

Well...i made my decision just now after asking James/Ah Tung for advice...coz i don't really know what to do just now...I want so bad to go home and have dinner but at the same time...i do have commitments with church...i still have to attend the cellgroups and church service...I was stuck just now really...I don't know what to do...Whether to go to cellgroup or attend the dinner...

Would God understand if i went back for dinner and not to cellgroup and/or will my parents understand if i love God more and to show my love to my family i pray for them while im in a cellgroup...


Anyway...im goin to cellgroup...Even tho my heart feels quite lonesome now...I miss my family...Even with friends by my side...i still feel something missing inside....I hope i can overcome this and do my work...As i can't afford to slack off and lose my mood again...I lose far too many times already...I need to focus and have faith in myself....

3:45 AM;;
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

lol...now feeling paiseh le from my last post so i post something else now...Football

Tonite is Manchester United VS Copenhagen in Denmark...Man Utd will go through to the next round if Man Utd can atleast get a draw....but why bother a draw when u can win it and keep the momentum goin on and on until the end of the season...Need to have consistency to be champions...Also have to worry about complacency(Careless mistakes) when playing against weaker teams coz most probably we will think...haiya no need to worry la...sure win one by 3 or 4 goals....then in the end they got a draw...sad but true...So concentrating 110% is a must in every game no matter which team u are playing against...That what football is about...

Winning is fun and we will feel very sastified with our performance if we played well...Talking about winning....I just played futsall for bout 1 hour plus yesterday nite...Guess what the score was....it was 9-2...We trashed the the opponents...We played quite well...Our passing was great...Our pressuring was fantastic...but our finishing still need to touch up a bit....We got quite a lot of chances...even open goal chance was missed alot...both teams sure miss alot as the goal was only the basketball post/tiang...Its not easy to hit that thing...I tried and tried...i didn't even score one....sob..sob....but i sure did assist quite a few....I was overall happy with my performance....My teammate even belanja me 100 plus coz of my assist to him...lol...Most probably this friday will play again..coz that is the only free day of the week...Other than that can't play too long...lol...sure will feel tired and couldn't wake up the next morning...

Ok...enough ady with this football talk...I think u all are starting to get bored...except for Ryan maybe...coz he like football too...lol...

Ok...i think i end here for now...see ya

10:46 PM;;
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Hey guys and girls....I know it might be late...but i just feel like writing something...I just realize something quite important...And this might change my life....And myself...I hate who am i right now....I just can't live with it anymore....

Praying to God for answers just let me heart feel a bit unworried...but the questions are still there....I need help sometimes...Sometimes i get myself out of it...But sometimes i just break down not knowing what else to do....I know i have friends...but how many are them are true friends...One question in my life is who can i really trust...I just don't know anymore...Sometimes i feel out of place just because of who i am...Sometimes i feel like i bonded with them but on other days, it just seem to fade away...

Having a relationship is another thing...I feel that being who i am...i won't be able to approach anyone or someone whom i have feelings with...its quite hard...you know...There are tons of times which i wished i wasn't the person i am right now...People say that people will eventually change....I have faith that i will too someday but when...I really need that change...i just can't seem to right now...Stress has been on and off...Now im not even sure whether im taking the right course...I feel lost...

I need a new start to my life...I been lost for far too long....longer than i can remember...I remember all the things that i did that i should not have done before in my life...One of them is smoking...I regret that i smoked last time...I should have just rejected it...But i was out of the crowd..I want to get in so i just tried...Then there was one time where i went to a night club...Yes...i went clubbing before and i drank...yup..i drank like 2 bottles....I don't think i was drunk or anything coz i can still think straight and walk straight...I haven't really mention this to anybody in this new city...People think that im the good boy and all...Maybe they don't...i don't know....I can't read people minds or anything..Those are just one time experience...now i changed that....Now i just need to change something more to be a better person...

Now, after writing all that....i have a feeling that i shouldn't be posting this...but what the heck...Its my life...not EVERYBODY read it....If my parents read this....im sure as dead meat as a BBQ steak...

I apologize that all my blogs doesn't have photos....Its all just about my life...I know i like photography and all..but...i feel words describe everything they needed to say about...

3:12 AM;;
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